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United States I had to learn to talk and move again after my breakdown, says Rylan Clark – it was as if I’d had a str...
RYLAN Clark has revealed how he rebuilt the foundations of his life after the breakdown he suffered in the aftermath of his split from ex-husband Dan Neal.
The popular TV star, 35, had to learn to walk and talk again in 2021 and likened his condition to having suffered a stroke.
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Those dark days seem like a lifetime ago now, with Rylan back at the top of his game having made £2.5m in the past year.
Reflecting on his lowest moments in an interview with the Guardian, Rylan said: "I couldn’t understand why I pressed the nuclear button on my seemingly perfect life.
"And it’s only now I’m better that I realise it was the ejector seat I needed. Now I just wish I’d pressed that escape button earlier.
"I got so ill to the point where I knew I couldn’t get any iller. I couldn’t speak; I had to learn to speak again, I had to learn to move again - it was like I’d had a stroke. Nothing made sense to me."
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His very career was at risk as not only did he not have control of his faculties, but he couldn't bear to watch TV or listen to music - the two mediums he works on.
In the aftermath of his break up, Rylan even tried to take his own life.
In his memoir Ten: The Decade That Changed My Future, Rylan wrote: “For the first time in my 32 years, I felt I couldn’t carry on no more.
“‘What’s the point?’ I thought. I’d lost what I thought was everything, the one thing I always wanted. A man I loved. A family of my own. And now it was gone.
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“So I tried to end it. I won’t go into detail as I don’t think it’s fair on my mum, but thank God I was unsuccessful.”
The Supermarket Sweep host admitted he had no excuse for cheating on his ex, bringing to an end their six year marriage.
Rylan's relationship timeline
- The former couple met in 2013 when Rylan hosted Big Brother's Bit On The Side and Dan was a contestant in the house.
- Just a year later they got engaged in Paris with Dan dropping to one knee. Rylan told fans at the time: "Myself and @DanNealOfficial are very happy xxx"
- A celebrity packed wedding took place the following November, but the big day was kept under wraps. The happy couple were suited and booted for the nuptials and were joined by the likes of Towie's Amy Childs, presenters Eamonn Holmes, Ruth Langsford, Matt Willis and Emma Willis.
- Rylan was stepdad to Dan's son Cameron and treated him as if he was his own flesh and blood. He previously told Star Magazine: "I look at him [Cameron] like he’s my own. He can talk to me – I’m Dad, but he can talk to me about sex! I’ll say, 'As long as you’re being safe!"
- Rylan and Dan presented This Morning in 2017, becoming the first gay couple to do so.
- In 2021 tragedy struck and the pair went their separate ways sending Rylan into a downward spiral. Rylan took responsibility for the split, saying: "I have made a number of mistakes which I deeply regret and have inevitably led to the breakdown of our marriage."
But he explained the events that led to it, revealing his growing fame drove a wedge between them.
He said: “I think for many years I had felt a bit like an impostor. That nothing I was doing was right or not quite good enough.
“There were times when people told me this, and so confirmed my own self-doubts.
“And you know, when it’s those closest to you giving you this feedback, of course you take it to heart.
“Similarly, someone loving me this way was all I had ever wanted and now I’d found it.
“The reality is that over the course of my relationship I had started to feel wrong: I felt I was wrong for being successful, wrong for being me.”
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If you are affected by any of the issues raised in this article, please call the Samaritans for free on 116123.
You're Not Alone
EVERY 90 minutes in the UK a life is lost to suicide
It doesn’t discriminate, touching the lives of people in every corner of society – from the homeless and unemployed to builders and doctors, reality stars and footballers.
It’s the biggest killer of people under the age of 35, more deadly than cancer and car crashes.
And men are three times more likely to take their own life than women.
Yet it’s rarely spoken of, a taboo that threatens to continue its deadly rampage unless we all stop and take notice, now.
That is why The Sun launched the You’re Not Alone campaign.
The aim is that by sharing practical advice, raising awareness and breaking down the barriers people face when talking about their mental health, we can all do our bit to help save lives.
Let’s all vow to ask for help when we need it, and listen out for others… You’re Not Alone.
If you, or anyone you know, needs help dealing with mental health problems, the following organisations provide support:
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